Monthly Musing – July 2017 – End of an era
Small daughter finishes at her primary
school today. We’ve had a week of parties, performances, assemblies and
tonight there’s a prom – they’re certainly going out with a bang! After
today, my connection with this primary school that both my girls attended is
over and if it wasn’t in an area that’s great for dog walking then I might not
even go back there. Part of me is delighted, as I know that small
daughter is more than ready to move on to high school, but another part is a
little sad as small daughter is becoming less small every day. We can’t make our children stay little
forever, and nor should we want to, but it is a strange moment when it hits you
that they are growing up.
Small daughter is also excited and a
little sad. She’s spent time at her new
high school and is looking forward to the challenges that it’s going to
bring. She’s ready to be stretched in her
subjects, to learn more about the world and what’s going on around her; the
school puts an emphasis on being aware of current affairs as well as curriculum
subjects as they (wisely) say that there’s no point in students leaving with a
fistful of exam certificates and no awareness of what’s going on in the world. She’s ready to make new friends although she
intends to stay in touch with her old class.
They’re already swapping phone numbers and getting ready to write
messages to other all over their school t-shirts (a tradition in this school
that stretches back to when big daughter was there and even before). When small daughter has done the same time
again in this new school, she’ll be heading for university (if that’s what she
wants to do) and big daughter – well, big daughter will be a grown woman with a
life of her own by then. It’s not
something that I like to think about too closely. My chicks are spreading their wings and
already I can see them moving ever closer to the edge of the nest.
Not all of us are great at change. I know that I’m not; I need time to think
about what’s happening and how it’s going to make life different. I always know that life will be better
because I believe that every situation in our life is designed in some way to
improve it even if we can’t see it at the time, but that doesn’t make it any
easier when we’re faced with events that are both expected and unexpected. It’s going to take time to adjust to this new
life where small daughter has a phone and a key and knows which bus to get on. I’m not quite sure that I’m ready for that so
I am grateful that we have the school holidays to spend time together whilst I
get to know this new, confident person.
And perhaps have to find a new blog name for her. Small daughter is growing up.